Tuesday, June 18, 2013

23: The Year of Challenge & Changes

So, as you all can probably tell, I have been off the grid again. 

And for that, well . . . 

I, um, uhh . . . 
Hmmm . . . 

sorry is a pitiful word but here it sort of applies. 
I am so so sorry, That I got busy in the real world and was AFK

I have been busy with the bullshit of adulthood, and that is nothing to be ashamed of. 
. . . Right . . . ? 

However I am a bit ashamed. Well more than a bit to be completely honest.
Not for choosing my career and personal life pursuits away from the realm of computers, but for settling into laziness when the real world work was done. Granted, I have gone through a lot in the past few months which I will get into later. Is that any excuse though? To throw away the hard worked earned on the slower path, by taking the easy road with the quick fixes that last about as long as this run on sentence?
Oh God, Get on with it already!!

Okay okay! Here goes nothing.

It has been a crazy few months for dear old blogger and tortured artist Ashley. First, let's cover the updates on the life end. After getting ill and injured at a specific place I will not mention, loosing my visa, gaining a new visa sponsor, facing death and the grief aftermath, sticking to my diet and workout plans and actually loosing weight, landing jobs that made it too difficult to stick to that lifestyle change. My career was at a complete stand still. I got a few bits and bobs here and there, mostly helping friends with their work for free. I finally got a theatre job, then a film one, then another theater gig. Now I am auditioning, looking for more work and trying to get back into a routine to not only get some mental clarity, but to build a routine back up. 

Not having a routine has started making me question a hell of a lot of things. 
Not just about myself, but about my up-bringing, my school routines...
It feels like I have been on a treadmill for 22 odd years with headphones and blinders on, and at 23 the headphones and blinders were finally taken off, and I was told "Hey, Ash. You know there is a whole gym, not just this treadmill right? Oh and we are closing in five. So you will have to head outside soon."
Can you see why I have been away from the keyboard, yet??

Now I am back...again...no really, I swear! 
We've got so much new material for ya'll to read about not only my life, which I am sure you have been dying for, but more HTDW's and other interesting articles one health, goofiness, and reviews on every topic under the sky! See you tomorrow for more adventures.
 Bye for Now Lovelies xx


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