In My Own Little Corner, In My Own Little Blog...

When Cinderella heard the clock strike midnight, did she say,"oh, fuck this! I wanna keep dancing! Who cares if my clothes turn back into rags, if my face no longer shows any beauty due to the grim usually stuck to it, or how badly I'll get into trouble for this?" Nope. She hoofed it so fast she left her shoe, and didn't look back for it once.

Much in that fashion, I am turning away from my past and running toward my future...hopefully with both of my sneakers, cause this gimp's gotta have her shoe, thank you very much.

The clock has struck, and now I make the commitment for my one year goal.

1. I will lose weight, but for my health and my personal happiness. 130 lbs. And if in one year I don't lose at least 90 lbs, I will extend the date for only 5 months (so 40 or so lbs in 5 months). 

This is happening. I will not fail myself. I will succeed, in every facet of my life. Today was my first real world day, an audition in NYC during a hot and crowded Saturday. I was able to eat healthy all day, had a fantastic audition, and was able to walk 79 blocks (and more staircases than I thought I could) today. A fantastic first day in the next chapter of my life.

2. I will try to not be so self deprecating when it comes to the weight - loss, or any set backs I have. I can't preach to let the self-hate die when it lives with me, right? So, I will be kind to myself, the way I am with others. I will not hate myself for eating something that isn't quite on the plan, when there is nothing else around, but I will also try to make the healthier and tastier choice as best I can.

3. I will keep on my food diary, and my workout entry. I will continue to be as active as I can, and make sure to take care of my injury while pushing myself forward. I will be meticulous and brutally honest with what I eat and when, and I will post as often as I can to help others.

4. I will always try to give insightful advise to anyone who is concerned, like me, about health and/or injuries. I wish I had had someone to turn to when I first broke my foot to help me keep active without hurting myself so I could keep the weight off and keep the muscles from atrophying. But since we can't change the past, I will change the future for anyone I can.

5. I will find healthy, delicious, cheap, and easy recipes that can be cooked every day so my readers and I don't just eat steamed and flavorless foods forever. People shouldn't hate the health food. People should love the taste of real, substantial things. I hated being the only one in my family eating steamed broccoli, so soft I couldn't use a fork to eat it, and boiled chicken, with no herbs or anything to give it some life. Being healthy shouldn't make us feel excluded from social life, it should enhance us.

6. I will not hate myself for the failure of things outside of my control. I will remember that I am human, and can only do so much. I will take care of my injury when it is bad, I will take introverted time as required, and I will sing at the top of my lungs to make my soul feel free.

7. I will always keep an open mind, and a curious nature. I will never stop learning, and I will always want to learn more. So please, my dear readers, feel free to post articles and comment on posts (with pertinent information regarding topics discussed) or send me notes about ideas, recipes, or questions you have.

For now, that is everything in a nutshell.

Henry David Thoreau once said, "Go confidently in the direction of you dreams. Live the life you have imagined." And instead of dreaming Peter Pan would whisk me away some night, or something supernatural would shake my world's foundation to its very core, I will dream with a pinch of reality. I will run toward the future I will create, and I will love every second of the sprint.